421 days.... I think :)

so its 2009 and I graduate in 2010! It sounds so weird.... Only one more year. But most importantly there is like about 421 days until I turn 18!!!!!!! I can't wait. This is by far been the hardest year of my life and I have no doubt this year will also be very challenging, but I'm really trying. And I'm going into this year strong, excited, and ready. I have a new perspective on life and I am constantly learning everyday. Sometimes every second lol. So I guess I kinda never really ever made a new years resolution thingy and its weird cuz its the first time nobody even asked me what mine was, and i actually have one. I am going to be happier. Well I'm going to try. Going thru all this shit has made me question life and my purpose, but I have definitely found where I belong. I found out more about myself and I an even learning how to be assertive! I do realize people have it worse but I can say my issues are pretty up there. But I learned that people do care about me and that I really an a good person. And I realized that there is so much of life leftover beyond the stupid current restrictions. I know that I am loved and that I was put thru all of this because it is Gods plan ( sorry for stealing this line) but its true. I love knowing that I'm safe now and that my possibilities are endless :) when life hits us hard we just need to keep being strong and keep our heads up. Mush09 is over so watch out 2010, here I come!